A little bit of Louly

Its not often that I remember my dreams in detail well, and this time is no different…. (u thought for a sec there that I was going to say that I had remembered it well - HA!) But I have managed to remember some significant points in my dream that have just made me curious about how and why we dream, and why we dream what we do. Someone at work brought in one of those dream books that tell you if you dreamt of one thing that it means this - its totally random! And that simple explanation of “the thing you think of before you go to sleep is what you will dream of” - Rubbish!! I have never experienced that, ok so admittedly I have tried to force a few dreams to prove that point, but I spent so much time trying to create a dream that I couldn’t fall asleep! So, after a brief and (obviously) intellectual, discussion with someone else from work - we found that we tend to dream of thoughts or subconscious ponderings from previous days… perhaps dreaming is your brains way of processing, justifying, creating, artistically-editing your thoughts. Interesting….lets think about that tee hee

Anyway, I just regularly seem to be puzzled by the little snippets of dreams that I manage to remember - for instance last night I dreamt about being Clark from Smallville (hey - don’t judge me!) and I had to rescue someone from this man who was keeping them hostage - crazylike aye.

Nooo..!! I was mid-posting and went to go get a cup of tea and now I can’t remember what else I dreamt about cos my brain is now clouded with so many other thoughts from this morning!! darn it! oh man, now its completely gone, the rubbishness of it all.

oh well, that’s that over with then back to regular thinking I guess….. ooooh grapes, yum………….

I have got a dentist appointment this afternoon, which I have to leave work early for (shame). There is a dentist here, but I just can’t seem to bring myself to going somewhere other than to the same lady I have been going to since my first check-up when I was (however old you are when you have your first check-up).

I tried it once, and booked an appointment with another dentist in the same surgery, to have one of my molars taken out so that my wisdom teeth could grow healthy was all content on not being one of those afraid of the dentist. He was a little scary looking, kind of intellectual professor like, but I was determined! He gave me that glorious injection - and sent me to sit outside in the waiting room for it to get to work. Though I found out the other day that not EVERY dentist makes you go and sit outside, I guess these just like to make the ordeal even worse by letting us sit outside in a room of people thinking your lip is hanging off and not sure if you are dribbling or not….. the joys.

Anyway back into his chair;

“is it numb yet?”
“I’m not completely sure”
he stabs his pointy thing at it…. “did you feel that”
“well……Yeah”
“no but did you feeeel it”
“….eeerrrm I’m not sure what you…”
“ok that’s numb, lets get started”
gets his assistant to bring the sucky thing over to stop myself from drowning in my own spit.

“ok, if you could swallow for me”

**erm, not really cos my head is leaning back against your chair and my throat is bent shut but let me give it a try**

he brings out some pliery looking things and gets the assistant to bring the sucky tube thing into the area he is working on…

“this shouldn’t hurt, but you will probably feel it”

*eh?* too scared to attempt at speaking, though also physically impossible with all the equipment in my mouth!

“let me know if you can feel it too much” starts to pull at the tooth, moves it a little, the blood starts-a-flowing then grabs some other contraption adds that to my mouth then yanks it ……..

“I CAN FEEL THAT!!!!!!” Jumping forward

**ow ow ow ow ow** (blood)

“oh, well erm…. we are going to have to continue as its already half out now”

**oh.. well ok, that’s fine I’m not panicking about the pain I’m about to encounter, you pulling out the rest of my tooth without it being numb… eeek!**

trying to prepare myself….he yanks it out and tells me to wash and spit believe me I could have been there rinsing all day… then he gave me a cloth thing to bite down on to stop the bleeding, and another two for when that one got full…so I changed that on the way downstairs to reception… smiled weakly at the receptionists…. and started strolling down the high st. Thankfully I was meeting my sister, though think I might have freaked out my niece when I couldn’t speak and when I attempted to blood would appear…… gross!

So, that’s why I have now reverted back to my original dentist, I’m taking no more chances. She did ask if he had treated me well, I just smiled sheepishly… Thankfully its just a check-up today….
Oh no, scary thought - exactly WHAT am I going to do when she retires!!….. it doesn’t bear thinking about.

Friend of sinners, Lord of Truth
I am falling in love with you
Friend of sinners Lord of Truth
I have fallen in love with you

Jesus, I love your name
The Name, by which we’re saved
Jesus, I love your name
The Name, by which we’re saved

I wanted to sing this song (these might not be the correct words but that’s what I had in my head!) yesterday in our meeting, but I didn’t. We were all being encouraged, and people were definetly “in there”. I wasn’t sure if it was because I was set on “not responding” from the beginning, I kept finding excuses to not sing the songs or take in anything in any way through the meeting. Now I’m wondering why I didn’t! We were given a reminder of a story something about Mary being mocked, but she just ignored it and went to worship and sing to Jesus, I have to admit that I don’t actually know that story… so can’t really elaborate. Maybe I do, and am just being totally idiotic here - but the fact that my ears only perked when they were half way through doesn’t really help! Then they said something about there being a woman who needed to sing out. This song was pressing on my heart and I wanted to sing it, but I just didn’t. Then another song was started and I thought obviously it wasn’t meant for me to sing then! So just dismissed it. Has left me pondering on a few things and brought about some other feelings I associate with being heard singing in church. Just not sure why things happened like that, was it falseness or was it just my lack of boldness? I know there can be more than one person who can come to God and maybe I was meant to just sing it quietly… is a toughie.

Let the weekend commence!! May the sun shine, the fun be a plenty and EGCC FC win the game - a woo hoo! Go Team Go!

Sheesh! How depressing do I sound?! That’s encouraged myself - “sort it love!” ….

Its one of those days when it gets to 11 - and you wish that it was 4:00…. is gonna be a long day ahead for me, am feeling way too tired and my lack of energy is taking its toll on things. Am trying to cling onto that last bit of hope of a good day, at least the sun is shining…………….

Oh don’t I just love travelling with South Eastern! Got to the train station this morning, and my train was cancelled the next one wasn’t for another 30 mins… and all others were subject to “delay and cancellations”.. the joys. Though me man was with me, so that was nice to have some company in the hassle. Found out on the train, that it was due to ‘overrunning maintenance works’ tch. Into work about 10:00… strolling in as I do, ahh far too funny…. no energy to work yet, someone who works from Spain has sent some yummy cakes over, that’ll go nicely with me decaf.

At Spring Harvest this year I discovered Nicki Rogers - formerly of the band
Shine - and she was absolutely amazing. Her live performance was something of what I would love to be like, her lyrics on some songs were a bit iffy, but am loving her style. A song that gets me every time I listen to it, (yes we caved and bought the album there) and she sang it at SH beautifully, is Ocean - my hubbie managed to beat me to comment on it, but still wanted to share my interest in the song. Maybe one day I will attempt at singing it, somewhere further than my front room…………..the garden maybe….

Its Amazing, how you found me in the dark
You confound me, and I fear I’ll fall apart
If you don’t reach me, with the coals of your warm heart.
Its amazing how you set my life apart

You astound me with the ocean of your love
There you drown me, wash me down and soak the heart
A heart that calls you, with a longing for your love
You astound me and in your ocean I am found

Oh come find me
Reach inside me, oh come find me Lord
Oh come find me, reach inside the river Lord and pull me safely
To the warmth of your strong shores

You entice me
Like a child I’m taken in
I’m captivated by every song I hear you sing
Yes its your love songs I can hear them in the waves
You entice me and light my way on angel’s wings

Oh come find me
Reach inside me, oh come find me Lord
Oh come find me, reach inside the river Lord and pull me safely
To the warmth of your strong shores

There together, as I lay upon your heart
Is where you tell me

I’m Yours